Rain’s blog

Anthro and quantum’s marks are back. o.o I like how whether or not I studied made no difference in the final grade that I got. Currently I /just/ failed quantum before belling, but since prof emailed us going “you can view the current histogram, but it will get adjusted in arriving at the final grade.” I’m guessing it will be belled enough that I will pass. Okees. =/ The class average for the final was 45%. lawlz;;

I guess I’m not going to medical school after all lol. My mum’s friend was all like you shouldn’t give up blah blah! Always look forward! But you know, that is provided there is something to look at in front of you. Right now there is none. I will just be wasting time staring into nothingness if I look blindly ahead. I think it’s much easier to switch to something more achievable than dying to reach for the something that’s clearly not going to happen.

Feeling like walking in a valley surrounded by to piercing cliffs, looking up at the thin strip of sky appearing out of reach. Once upon a time I was up at the mountain top bathing in sunlight, but somehow I must’ve mis-stepped and fell through the thin crack between the cliffs down into the abyss. Maybe I wasn’t destined to fly. Maybe I was supposed to live with the crocodiles, trying my best not to get devoured in this creek of desperate competition. Survival of the fittest, eh?

.. At least I have a job now. For a little while.

Where is the glowing light within my heart?