Rain’s blog

Currently in Vancouver o0o! This place is freezing. My landlord is too cheap to turn on the furnace so I’m freezing in the ground-level basement. Vancouver in all of its dampness smells like rotting dumpster. ~__~

We went to Victoria Island today and paid a trip to the BC Parliment. It’s pretty nice in there :D They have this huge christmas tree 2 stories all with lots of barbles and tinsels. (sp?) Luckily today’s a workday so I got to visit the inside unlike both of the times I’ve been at the Ottawa Parliment. We also went to Burchant’s Garden. HOLY CRAP THAT’S NOT A PRIVATE GARDEN o_O!! I don’t want to imagine how much time and labour it’d take just to maintain that gignatic place. But it’s REALLY nice and I loved all the green areas in there. I love trees :D (No I’m not a tree hugger) It makes me feel peaceful just looking at them. We took Ferries there and back and one-way trip was 1.5 hours O_O! The cruise is huge though. It can contain 400 small-medium sized cars in its lower decks. The upper passenger decks has 2 coffee bars, a breakfast food court, a water-front buffet restaurant, 2 video arcades and a giftshop. o_o In other words, HUGE! (Did mention huge?) It looks super luxurious in there x) We got dropped off in front of T&T supermarket and I bought more Pocky. lol. xD

My vancouver friend said she’s gonna introduce me to some nice BBT shops hmmm. Except I forgot her contact cuz I’m just so very smart C: Oh well I will have REAL Japanese Sushi. There’s a Jap restaurant right in front of my current residence and it’s opened by a Japanese. Not like cheap Toronto where you go to a Sushi place and everyone’s shouting Cantonese at each other lolol. Except Japanese are really strict or something so nothing’s on the house ;( There goes my complimentary Miso soup and ice cream. !sob

I brought my laptop along but my plug is 3-some and the only outlet in my room is 2-holed (not to mention broken and lacking power). So I hunted around the house today and finally found a 3-hole outlet. It happens to be above the couch in the lounge facing the bathroom. So currently I’m sitting in the freezing lounge on the couch facing the bathroom. I must say the pleasent smell in the air is very inspirational. +nod+

My wireless card randomly picked up some unsecured wireless internet in the area. So I’m leeching off someone’s internet right now +halo+ Too bad for whoever it is hehe. This net is really slow though, despite the strong signal I’m getting. =( A jpg file takes a minute to load x_o; In all of that I refrained from going to neopets hehe. I put my status on hiatus. LET’S KEEP IT THAT WAY KKK. Unless I get unfrozen which I highly doubt but still am working towards. Yay for contradictory goals. ;)

K sleep time x_o.

I like online because you don’t need to see how sad I really am. Ex Dee

So yeah, I think I failed vibrations, which is PATHETIC, because I knew what I was doing but made stupid mistakes here and there and they were all worth A CRAPLOAD of marks. :( Crapload being like.. 10 percent each on the exam. So I’m looking at a wha, 50 now? lololollllz.

I need a confidence booster.

After much delay I finally read MJ’s last LJ entry (LOL! I forgot xD sorry) Speaking of written communications, I guess I’m still more comfortable with this method than face-to-face talk. I like hiding behind this screen and expose the me that you would not otherwise see. I long for attachment yet at the same time afraid of it, because every time I grow attached to someone, or something, it gets shattered and taken away from me. (hence my view on “balance between good and bad events in life”) What Seth from OC said “When things gets too good around here, doom will come and knock it”.

To prevent myself from being hurt, I keep a nice distance away from everyone, and swallow negative comments to myself. Everyone online thinks I’m as sweet as pie, only I know I’m not that innocent. Nobody knows who I hate secretly, because on the surface, you can’t see any indication. I was watching Mean Girls and thinking, does that make me manipulative? lol. I think I’m too naive and immature to be able to achieve that.

Sometimes I get confused about who I really am and how I really think. I hide things I love because they are accepted as “shallow” or otherwise stupid. Amongst all that hiding and disguising I grew to love late nights and single rooms. When the world is quietly sleeping, my soul is wide awake enjoying the freedom of privacy. I can be whomever I want to be without feeling shameful or embarrassed. (Nightdream vs daydream? rofl) To a certain degree, this is what this blog achieves as well, my personal outlet without anybody yelling at me for having the thoughts I already have. (If you do yell, I guess I will just have to delete your comment)

Anyhow, enough time wasted on this. AHHHHH AERO EXAM +flees+

[Edit]: from www.deathclock.com